Creative vibes

Daily writing prompt

What is your favorite hobby or pastime?

10/9/2023 8:41 am

I saw today’s prompt and that is a hard question to answer.

I have always been a creative person by nature and enjoy just the process of bringing a thought or idea into fruition. To see it actually come to life is an awe-inspiring moment sometimes.

The problem though, is that I also have anxiety and depression, my children believe that I may also have ADHD. I have not been diagnosed with ADHD in any form but I can see where they may think that. I believe it is more the anxiety and depression. That I know I have had most of my life.

In those low moments of the depression the motivation is just not there. I get weepy and just vegetate. Unproductive and sullen. Thankfully, it is to the point where it doesn’t last too long anymore, years of therapy, now I know what my triggers are and can work through it.

In those high moments, the thoughts are all over the place and I start too many different things. It requires a lot of focus to stay on task to completion. I also have to be in the right mood to start something new.

When everything is okay and balanced then my creativity is there and I am pretty happy with the end results.

I used to focus on cake decorating and sugar art, entered and won competitions, taught classes, and met a lot of interesting people. That was a fun time. I was so looking forward to creating a business out of it. Now because of the shoulder injury over four years ago that has been sidelined. I struggle with using my hands and cannot lift more than five pounds now. The creative ideas are still there though.

I rediscovered bead working about two summers ago because of my youngest daughter. I had all the tools and supplies but just never stopped to attempt anything. She pushed me to try again. It has been fun and I am so pleased with the results. It takes me a while to complete a project because of the hands but that is okay. It has been quite an undertaking and it helps keep me focused.

Over five years ago I joined an art therapy group for my mental health. This helped me rediscover the drawing, painting, and crafting that I used to do all the time growing up. That combined with reading and writing is what helped me through the depressive states as well as the abusive environments I was living in. It kept me motivated to keep going.