10/9/2023
10:30 am
It is another Monday morning here in the middle of the USA.
Up early to take my son to his school, drank some coffee, and sat in the sunshine this morning.
Wrote a brief blog post based on today’s prompt and was thinking about this whole thing.
I started this blog in 2016 and really did not start writing more until 2017.
I never actually thought about a blog but I had a few websites that I ran before but they were all related to the cake decorating classes I used to teach. That was the extent of my experience.
Then one day in a therapy appointment the idea of starting a blog and writing about cake decorating was born.
I made a few posts and actually did not go back for almost a year. Then life happened.
My divorce happened in 2015 and then in 2016 my ex-husband passed away. It was unexpected and not how I thought my life was going to be. All the plans I had made were done. It put me into a deep spiraling depression.
Writing became the way out of that depression.
Here, in this part of the world wide web, my thoughts were free to roam and it was my safe place.
Then it began to grow which was very surprising to me. I remember that first like and comment I received, it was slightly overwhelming. I actually did not think anyone would be reading anything that I wrote. It was just me releasing those anxious and depressive thoughts out into the universe so I could continue moving on.
I began setting up a a routine and set writing goals, to complete at least one blog article a week. I am still a hit and miss on that mainly because I get very busy with living my life sometimes. In the interim, I write down on sticky notes, a notepad, or even in my notes on my phone, ideas of things to write about.
Whether it s something creative, about my family, my relationships, or something occurring in the world, there always a topic to discuss or write about. The only issue was, will anyone look at or read it?
I got over that fear about writing into my second year and whether what I write about is interesting. It is my own thoughts and words. I try to stick to the wise words of my grandmother “Never discuss anything you are unsure about, read and understand first.”
That is what I do if it is a topic that maybe controversial to some and I do not want to presume that I know anything or the truth about it. I have not written about any serious topics in quite a while. I have a list but I also have to be in the mood to want to write about it.
This is what my desk usually looks like when I am writing.
Kind of cluttered both on the desk and the screen as well. Spotify playlist running in the back ground. My many digital folders filled with pics, articles, lists, and data. A Word document open, ready to be filled with thoughts, ideas, and information. The blog website page open. A candle that may invoke some sort of inspiration. Copious amounts of coffee.
I also usually have my phone beside me so I stay connected with my family. My cat usually joins me and sits by my feet until I am done.
When I look back at all of this it is somewhat satisfying. I created a way to find that peace and calm when things become too overwhelming. Whether it is happy or sad thoughts, it has become a way to stay motivated and keep looking forward. A brief moment in my week that may have impact on someone else besides me.
I will never be a great novelist, playwright, or screenwriter but this is my own little cozy space in the world and it is not too bad.
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Have a wonderful week!
Peace, love, happiness, and good vibes, always!
Suzanne
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