“Be Patient” – The Universe finally answered

2/10/2024

2:19 pm

It was almost a year ago when I wrote about how I was impatiently waiting for a change in my life.

I had started the process of revamping my skills and started a bookkeeping course. It was a long 10 months of online classes 7 days a week but I finished the course in November of 2023 or so I thought.

It was the holiday season and I started putting in my applications everywhere knowing that most companies do not start looking for new hires until after the beginning of the new year.

In the meantime, I found out that I was missing an additional 8-week course that was to provide assistance with the job search process. The new instructor and director over the program I was taking failed to enroll me in that course in a timely manner. That was eventually straightened out.

This did cause me to miss out on an additional 2 months of stipends from my Vocational Rehabilitation program. It caused quite of bit of struggle with bills over the last few months.

Then my counselor for vocational rehab informed me that since I was now doing job search instead of continuing on with the education plan we made I was eligible for additional funding for another 60 days to assist. We just finished up the paperwork.

In the course of all of this, I had an interview with my own tribal nation mid-January. I had applied for both an Accounts Payable and an HR assistant position. It seemed like it went well until they asked the last question, “What family do you belong to?” and “Why do you want to work for the Sac and Fox Nation.” I am not even sure why my family lineage was even important and I was blunt about why I wanted to work for our tribe. I was very straightforward and honest. I never got a call back.

I then went and applied to other tribal nations for positions such as desk clerks, customer service and accounting clerks. I was turned down by most or never even got call backs for an interview.

It was beginning to feel rather bleak and I felt like I was wasting my time. The frustration increased. It took a lot of talks with my kids and my online person encouraging me to keep pursuing looking for a position. I was starting to give up.

One very early morning, my sleep has been altered since Christmas, at around 3 am I saw a position online for a training specialist with another tribal nation.

I was an Education and Training Manager in the Air National Guard for over 12 years and prior to that I was a Unit Training Manager for a Weather Flight for almost 5 years.

I know how to revamp and build programs from the ground up. I have many awards and accolades for my work in this field. I was always the “go to” person for helping with inspections and have commendations from those as well.

It had been a long time since I worked that particular job but I applied and submitted my resume. In my negative thinking, I told my son if that I got turned down, then I officially have been looked over and passed by every major tribal nation in my state. I felt disheartened by the thought.

A few days later, I got an email from the HR of the tribal nation, they wanted me to fill out their official application on their website and submit it. I did and thought it would be at least a couple of weeks before I would get a response back based on previous experience. That was a Friday afternoon. The following Monday, I got a phone call for an in-person interview.

The interview went really well and they were very clear about what was needed. I answered every question they threw at me and gave my honest opinion about the importance of training to a business or organization.

It was an hour long interview and I left still feeling somewhat doubtful. I was in a negative headspace because it was fours years since the last job I worked. I struggled with those thoughts.

Two days later, I got a text while I was at my doctor’s appointment, I was offered the position. To say I was overwhelmed is an understatement. They seemed very positive and excited about me being there in that capacity. I would be reporting the HR director as a the head of the training section.

This sudden turn of events was in contrast to what they had said during the interview. I was told that if I was offered the position it could take a couple a weeks to get all the background checks completed before I could start.

I called to confirm my acceptance of the position and they asked if I could start right away. I start on the 12th of February, which is only a few days from now.

In less than two weeks, I went from being unemployed for almost four years to a full-time job for one the ten largest tribal nations in the United States. I am still rather overwhelmed by it all.

All these changes occurred and at the same time, I finally had my disability hearing on February 2nd. I have been waiting for 8 months now.

The lawyer for the case believed that it went well and we should have a decision within 30 to 60 days. I also found out the rules for working and being on disability have changed since the last time I checked, two years ago. Making it possible for me to continue working with some exceptions.

2/22/2024 – Continuation

I started writing that 12 days ago. I have been working the new job for more than a week now and tomorrow will be the end of the second week.

I have been physically exhausted and mentally drained every day. I have also been in pain and have had several small tremors while driving to or from work and while at work. It is both my shoulder and my right leg that are constantly aching.

It is not the mental or thinking tasks related to this job causing discomfort because that is been a welcomed challenge. A new change of pace and thinking.

It is the physical challenges and the fact that I have not been on a set schedule for over four years now. It is getting the better of me at the moment.

The other part of the physical issue is the driving. I drive 94 miles round trip every day. I have not done that much driving in quite a while. It is going to take some getting used to.

Despite the discomfort, I am going to try and stick it out through my probationary period then see how I feel. If it is still taking its toll on me then I will have to decide if it is for me or not. I spoke with my director about my physical issues/limitations and the doctors appointments, she stated we could make adjustments to my schedule and I could also telework if needed. That is a good option as well.

I complained, fretted, and worried over all of this for the last 4 years. I was annoyed by the fact that I was not producing my own income and having to rely on others.

Every time I would get into these down or frustrated thoughts, everyone kept telling me to be patient.

I guess the Universe was listening to my thoughts, prayers, meditations, and those quiet moments of reflection.

The Universe finally answered.

Thank you for stopping by.

Have a fabulous week!

Peace, love, happiness, and good vibes, always!

Suzanne