5/21/2024
3:19 pm
I saw this prompt and it ties into what I think about quite a bit, especially lately.
I turned 53 years old in April and a short time after that I got the letter from Social Security Disability saying it was approved. After a 4 year long back and forth of denials, start overs, medical appointments, and eventual hearings it was determined that my physical limitations and my mental health conditions warranted the disability claim.
This decision essentially retired me from working but I know there is a possibility of continuing to work at least part time. I still have not made that decision completely yet. I am mulling things over while I try to figure out what I want to do.
Legacy, what do I leave behind?
Hopefully, those that I have interacted with over my lifetime will see the value of hard work, determination, and true grit that I portrayed in every aspect of my life. That no matter how hard things get, how much pain you go through, or how dark and deep those thoughts go, there is always a positive, a light, or a silver lining somewhere. It takes inner determination and sometimes willpower to find it and hold onto it.
Memories, what do I leave behind?
It would be all too easy to keep ahold of and remember all the bad things that life threw at me. All the disappointment, physical and emotional trauma, and the sense of loss or despair but what does it really do to help you? It reality, the only thing it does is hold you back from finding the things that matter the most. The happiness, love, laughter, light, and beauty in the world around you. It is easy hard to see the positive sometimes.
It does not matter how big or small these good things are, over time they become the best memories of life lived well. I hopefully have left some good memories for others even when they won’t remember my name anymore.
Change, what do I leave behind?
I used to have these grand ideas of becoming this highly successful and innovative leader capable of making changes that affect the whole world. Along the way, those ideals changed as I saw how innovation can sometimes be the bearer of bad things despite the original good intentions.
As I got older and life experience helped me gain some wisdom, I realized change is not about the latest and greatest. Instead the most impactful change possible is within communities, one person at a time.
To not only bring peace, harmony, joy, and sometimes just a helping hand to others but to teach something even in the smallest way. There is power in knowledgeable people and always will be. We as human beings can be the greatest innovators of change for mankind. We just have to remember our strengths, work on our weaknesses, and push aside the ideals that weigh us down or blind us to those facts. To stay true to ourselves and who we know we are.
As I continue moving forward, I will just take it one day at a time and try to live life to fullest of my capabilities while remembering to take care of myself in the process.
Thank you for stopping by.
Have a great week!
Peace, love, happiness, good vibes, and positive thoughts, always!
Suzanne
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