What bores you?
2/23/25
8:05 am
It has been a while since my last post. I have been working more on my other creative endeavors.
I saw this prompt and it resonates with the people I have met lately.
I do not want to come across as a “snob” or “rude” which I have been told by others before. This is just my opinion based on observation.
I have lived my life dealing mostly with trauma, terrible people, abusive behaviors, and toxic environments. Yet, despite the depression, anxiety, and stress as a result, I have never lost that spirit that maintains my creativity.
This positive energy is what keeps me motivated and moving forward. It is what I turn to when I having those down moments. It is at the base of all my aspirations, dreams, and desires. This is what I do not see in others enough.
It is that same spirit we had as children before the world we live in made us feel differently as we grew up. That lighthearted feeling that made us believe not only in the magic and beauty of every day but made us believe in ourselves and each other.
When I meet people now whose only focus is the negativity in their lives, I find it boring. They don’t see what I see about them. I search out the best parts of them and try to make them see that too. It doesn’t always work. That is usually when that connection comes to an end.
The people I meet surround themselves with so much negativity and mistrust in their own selves that their view of the world is nothing but shades of gray. The colors of the world have faded for them.
I used to be that person but I always held onto to those tiny glimmers of light in that darkness. It was my hope, faith, and belief in myself that pulled me through. That is the only person that can change anything, yourself.
I get bored by people with no aspirations. There is more to life than working 9 to 5 every day to pay never ending bills and debt. It is an endless cycle that only can be changed when you are ready to change it. That choice has always been up to you.
I once read this book called “168 Hours: You Have More Time Than You Think” by Laura Vanderkam. This book had you break down your week to see how much “extra” time you actually had to dedicate to other things that were important to you.
That is when I realized that I wasted a lot of time actually doing nothing productive or positive. I spent too much time in a negative headspace.
I decided it was time to bring that dying creative spirit back to life. To do things that I wanted to do. To live the life that I had always aspired to. To no longer let other’s opinions affect my life.
I started working an extra job that required creativity along with my regular 9 to 5, to make more money to dedicate to my other endeavors but then fate stepped in. I ended up with nothing but free time after my rotator cuff surgery and the mostly recovered arm with limitations. It did not break that creative thinking. That has always been there.
I have now been completely retired from working and placed on full disability benefits after years of back and forth with claims, denials, refiling, and medical evaluations. I had continued on trying to obtain new skills to keep working but fell short and was not successful in obtaining employment. My age and disability requirements were major factors in that process. It was time to let go of that notion that “I am not useful if I am not working a 9 to 5 job”.
It was time to fully focus on my own health and wellbeing. To heal those old wounds and take better care of myself. To strengthen and build on that creative side of myself. The universe heard my self doubts, prayers, and struggles.
I got off topic, I was writing about aspirations.
My aspirations have always been to be an artist and creative person. It is the one thing that never left me no matter how dark things got in my life.
It is the one thing that no one could break down in my soul. It has always been there, dormant, but still there.
The creative spirit has been waking up and becoming more active for a while now. I spend my days learning new things, creating, and sharing with others.
Whether it is writing here on this blog, posting my beadwork on my Instagram, sharing my projects on Facebook, or watching other mixed media artists on YouTube, my days are now filled with ideas, creativity, and inspiration.
I wake up every morning with gratitude and love for my life. I appreciate everything that I have. I cherish my loved ones. I am grateful for the life that I live.
I seek out others who have similar interests, experiences, and attitude.
I have days when physical pain and limitations affects my mental wellbeing and I will just nap on and off or binge watch movies or television but then it passes. I come back and continue on.
When I was working I had the same number of hours in the week as anyone else. After I wrote down how many hours were dedicated to other necessities, I realized that I had about 40 hours a week being wasted to nothing. I was just watching television or movies, wallowing in self pity, and feeling depressed. I had to get out of that mindset.
I started slowly by making a list of things to work on for the week with the idea that whatever I didn’t accomplish would be at the top of the list the next week. Now I have blocks of time dedicated to certain projects.
I also make sure to take time every day to be grateful for at least three things. Daily gratitude can change your attitude.
I started making future plans for myself.
I began nourishing my soul in better ways.
I found a more creative use of my time.
Well it is time to get up and start my day. I think I’ve rambled long enough.
Thank you for stopping by and visiting my blog.
Have a wonderful day!
Peace, love, happiness, and good vibes, always.
Suzanne
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