5/3/2024
1:12 pm
It is early in the afternoon, a Friday. Most people are busy finishing up their work for the day and looking forward to a restful weekend.
I myself have been unemployed for quite a while, so every day is a weekend, there are no time limits. Would this be considered freedom?
When I started working at the age of 16, it was just for fun and to earn a little pocket money. I enjoyed having the funds to do whatever I wanted. Fast forward from 1987 to 2019, approximately 32 years later and I was tired. I was more than tired, I was stressed out and very unhappy. Having funds from working was only about paying bills and surviving every day by that point. I needed a change and threw those thoughts out into the universe for an answer.
The answer came with a price though, 4 years of daily pain from an injury that sidelined everything. I had brief moment of finally working but once again the universe decided that it was just not for me anymore. I was stressed both physically and emotionally that entire month then my car suddenly died one day. That was the end of that.
It has been this emotional roller coaster of sorts for a month now. It is coming to grip with the reality that this is my life now, no schedule, no demands from others, and time in front of me. Is this the freedom that I wanted and how do I make it work for me?
Time, in my opinion, is the ultimate freedom. When you wake up every day and you get to decide what to do with those mere 24 hours, 1440 minutes, and 86,400 seconds a day, it changes your perspective. It will create two different scenarios based on the individual.
The first scenario is a reflection of all that you have accomplished in your lifetime of working and living. Did you accomplish what you wanted or is there more to be done? If there is more to be done, does it really matter or make an impact on the lives of others? Basically, is it worth it and what is sacrificed in the process? Relationships, time, money, or your own well-being?
I always assumed that once I reached that stage in life that I would suddenly become this altruistic crusader of justice for others. Yet, I am bombarded by the sheer amount of injustices there are in the world every moment of the day.
It has become overwhelming to even fathom how much destruction is inflicted on the human beings of this world. Power, greed, and control is at the root of all of it. There is no freedom in the pursuit of these things. There never was and never will be. Until people truly realize that, that loop will continue.
The second scenario is finding or pursuing your passion. That one thing that you looked forward to every day as a working adult. It could be sports, hobbies, creative outlets, volunteerism, or just existing in nature.
The possibilities are endless with the only limitations being your willingness to learn and grow. That discovery of who you truly are as a human being. This is supposedly the pinnacle of your life’s existence. When you reach this self-actualization and realizing your purpose. Maybe it is reaching that moment of Zen or finding Xanadu, who knows?
When the people that inhabit this planet finally value the one thing we can never recreate or get back, time, is when we will reach the pinnacle of our existence. We only have so much of it and it should not be wasted.
Thank you stopping by.
Have a great week!
Peace, love, happiness, and good vibes, always!
Suzanne
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