Lazy days or Days of rest?

10/20/2023

2:32pm

This is a very good prompt and question.

As a person who was always bordering being a workaholic, lazy days are a welcomed change to the daily grind that I used to live.

When I was working non-stop it was mainly to keep myself from dwelling on the depression, anxiety, and trauma I was living in. I kept myself too busy to think about anything else and it was exhausting. I worked that way for over 25 years.

I was exhausted physically, mentally, and emotionally. I was living in a constant daze where I was in automatic mode. I had no joy or harmony in my life.

I had lost all sense of creativity and was stuck, there was no personal growth happening unless it was related to work.

I began realizing that the last few years before I retired from the military and made a decision to change the outlook. Unfortunately, it took a mental breakdown to actually move forward towards permanent changes.

I recovered and discovered at the same time, my joy in being creative.

Competing in a cake decorating competition was one of my saving graces and I have written about that previously. It truly helped me realize that there were still beautiful things in the world and the sense of pride from creating something from your own two hands.

After spending the last 10 years working, after my military retirement, post divorce, and just trying to survive, the notion of just doing nothing was hard at first. It has always been hard for me to just relax but it has become helpful in my journey to discovering the things that I enjoy.

I no longer see it as being lazy but instead necessary to just recharge my outlook, thoughts, and ideas.

Whether it is eating junk food and watching movies, sleeping in without setting an alarm, or spending the morning writing or reading, these have been crucial moments to my recovery process.

It has provided that needed pause in life to just be me.

No expectations and no drama.

Just a good cup of coffee and watching the sunrise.

Thank you for stopping by.

Have a good week!

Peace, love, happiness, and good vibes, always!

Suzanne