4/22/2026
4:56 pm
Hello my fellow human beings.
It has been a minute since my last long post and yesterday I celebrated my 55th trip around the sun.
As I sat there this morning, meditating, and putting things into perspective, I realized that I have lived a long, out of the ordinary life.
It has never been exactly as I planned, plans rarely go as expected but I have managed.
These thoughts also came up in the family zoom call the day before my birthday. This year, we decided to play games on our birthdays but the caveat being it had to be about us as individuals and seeing how much do we really know one another.
I chose “Who wants to be a millionaire” as my game theme and all the questions were about me from the age of 8 until I retired. My kids learned so much more about me as their mother. Stories that I have told before and to see who actually listened or remembered them. It was almost a tie between them.
My kids noted in our conversation during the game that I always have to be “extra” and yes, I went a little overboard with my power point presentation with all the transitions and sound. Then we laughed about it because they are the same. We have never made anything simple. We have always put in more effort than really what was needed. It is what makes us stand out and what people notice about us.
As I sat here this afternoon, finishing up a poem that I posted and the word prompt writing I started last week, I reminisced about my life thus far.
Yes, there was a lot of bad mixed in with the good parts but I wholeheartedly believe the good parts were a way for the universe to balance it all out. To keep things on an even keel.
The bad parts were there to help me grow as a person. Those moments showed me what or who I did not want in my life as well as how I want to be treated as person. It made me see the true injustices in the world more clearly.
I used to say my life was like a “soap opera”. This is the definition I found that describes it perfectly, “A long-running serial, frequently characterized by melodrama, an ensemble cast, and sentimentality”.
In my case there was more chaos, trauma, deception, manipulation, and sometimes abuse, that was just my parents, their family, and some relationships. The melodrama was more related to the people I worked and associated with.
All this and me as the side character in it all, I was never the main character.
Now, I have spent the last 5 years rebuilding my life so I am the main character. It has been calm and quietly becoming safe, stable, and secure.
I have allowed my creative side to show and be shared with others. Whether is here on this blog or through my social media outlets. I have finally become comfortable in my own skin, unafraid to be me.
No longer willing to not say what I think and to have my opinion be muted by others. The invisible mask of silence imposed upon me by others has been lifted whether others like it or not.
Life is too short to keep living the vision or perception others have of you. You be you.
This has caused both discourse and discord in my relationship with others. Some relatives believe I am wrong about cutting ties with parents and their family. The sentiment being “They are still your parents”.
These relatives have slowly started moving away from interactions with me and my kids after I remind them of the abuse inflicted by the same people they are defending. Others that have come into these conversations have made changes to their own life concerning what is being said by my parents and their family, taking it with a grain of salt.
I remind these people that how I interact with my parents and their family is my choice and they have their own to make concerning them. I’m not here to make someone take my side. I know where I stand. I know what is most important to me in my life; my own family.
What does the next 50 years hold for me? Who knows? If I am lucky to live to the ripe old age of 111, the age of wisdom I want to reach, then I will have even more stories to tell. The first volume of my life is done and I have begun the next.
All I can do is continue to maintain the hope, faith, and belief in the goodness of others to get me there.
I will continue to live with peace, love, happiness, and good vibes, always!
Sprinkled with a little laughter, good memories, good people, and creativity.
The next trip around the sun has begun.
Thank you for stopping by and continuing to support this blog, it is and always will be greatly appreciated!
Have a wonderful week!
May your actions be purposeful, your thoughts be mindful, and your words be truthful.
Suzanne
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